[Sir this was supposed to be his nice peaceful night with Dan Heng. They scheduled their first time like nerds. He was going to sleep like a log afterwards.
But NOOOOOOOOoooo, he has to be woken up twice by Dan Feng's mental crisis.
He'd be a lot pissier about it but he can't help but feel bad for him. When Dan Feng isn't actually in front of him saying horrible things, Jing Yuan has a rough time not just thinking of him as the regular Dan Feng...
Anyway he groggily replies, with none of his expected decorum. He's too tired to be eloquent on a flip phone.]
[since he got old and started trolling social media--]
you did
[there's a pause, then, while he debated whether to show a hint of kindness or not. He ends up deciding on yes, giving in to the part of him that just can't quite let go.]
it wasnt you you are not our dan feng feel guilty over your own crimes
Yuor not the boss of me . And I tried to do the same tthing anyway.
[he really did try to keep being Absolutely Insane over that revelation to himself but in this singular topic he just can’t and there was nobody else here who knew yingxing was and could know the gravity of what he’d done.]
I shouldntve involvrd him in the first place. he ws doing it for my sake. He doesn’t deserve that. Nobody desevrs that I dont remember if you two were introduced before his hair started graying.
He’s your gege dont talk about him like that even if its true.
[he drops his phone on his face when he comprehends what jing yuan is asking. the familiar tide of rage and hurt rises up his throat and he has to take about ten minutes to control the urge to break his own bedroom window and break into the sloth house.]
I don’t understand you.o I can talk about it . Without . Going mad. This is better because Icant see your face. 700 years is a long time to think about what could hve beens.
I would have turne d myself in, if the arbor didnt activate. even if we succeeded. I lost him before we started anything that night. Its likely id be in the shackling Prison briefly, but My preceptors would petition for house arrest instead.
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DAY 5 2AM 1/4
he’s not yingxing2/4
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
IS HE LYING TO ME
3/4
you didnt lie to me. you should have
i did that to him
oh, lan. i did that to him
4/4
If you could just ignore all of that I would be indebted to you. Thank youRe: 4/4
But NOOOOOOOOoooo, he has to be woken up twice by Dan Feng's mental crisis.
He'd be a lot pissier about it but he can't help but feel bad for him. When Dan Feng isn't actually in front of him saying horrible things, Jing Yuan has a rough time not just thinking of him as the regular Dan Feng...
Anyway he groggily replies, with none of his expected decorum. He's too tired to be eloquent on a flip phone.]
gonna remember it 😊
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I deserved thatGo back to sleep gen.
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you did
[there's a pause, then, while he debated whether to show a hint of kindness or not. He ends up deciding on yes, giving in to the part of him that just can't quite let go.]
it wasnt you
you are not our dan feng
feel guilty over your own crimes
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Yuor not the boss of me . And I tried to do the same tthing anyway.[he really did try to keep being Absolutely Insane over that revelation to himself but in this singular topic he just can’t and there was nobody else here who knew yingxing was and could know the gravity of what he’d done.]
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You're right.
I can't tell you how to feel.
But
[and another pause for rubbing his eyes and turning his brain back on a little bit]
That Yingxing walked at Dan Feng's side until the end.
An accomplice.
Not a victim.
You're a monster, but you don't have to carry anyone else's sins.
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I shouldntve involvrd him in the first place. he ws doing it for my sake. He doesn’t deserve that. Nobody desevrs thatI dont remember if you two were introduced before his hair started graying.
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He was a jerk.
[He hesitates just a moment, before making a terrible decision:]
Do you think you'd have done things differently if it hadn't happened to you?
The Abundance.
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He’s your gege dont talk about him like that even if its true.[he drops his phone on his face when he comprehends what jing yuan is asking. the familiar tide of rage and hurt rises up his throat and he has to take about ten minutes to control the urge to break his own bedroom window and break into the sloth house.]
Is that a question you really want answered?no subject
[He starts and stops typing about 30 times here. How does he say what he's thinking without ruining this moment of normalcy?]
I suppose I can't help but wish to understand you.
But I'll accept your silence, if it means you can still speak with me the way you are right now.
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I don’t understand you.o I can talk about it . Without . Going mad. This is better because Icant see your face.
700 years is a long time to think about what could hve beens.
I would have turne d myself in, if the arbor didnt activate. even if we succeeded. I lost him before we started anything that night. Its likely id be in the shackling Prison briefly, but My preceptors would petition for house arrest instead.
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You're Dan Feng after all.
[Aaaand this is the point where he quits responding, because Dan Heng is definitely taking his phone away when he starts crying over it at 3am.]